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Suicide

Sometimes I get really sad. Then I overreact and try to kill myself. If we had bleach at my house, I probably wouldn't be writing here now. Since last writing here, I was seriously going to kill myself four times.

The Way my Mind Works

I overreact to everything. Sometimes I feel like I can win AGT if I wanted. And other times it takes me forever to convince myself to eat.  If my dad yells at me, it has to mean that he's going to kick me out of the house. If my crush looks at me weirdly, it means that they have officially rejected me. They hate my guts, versus them looking at me like that because I'm just acting weird. People say that I'm so dramatic, but maybe it's just the way my brain works? Here's what was going through my mind one day: so rn i would really like for God to come down and tell me why i'm here, why im not dead, and why things have to be so screwed up in my life and my brain. like i feel depressed, but no, it's screwed up brain chemistry. sometimes i feel like i can win agt if i wanted and other times i want to just curl up and die. and this happens, like everyday. and people are just like, oh, they're just mood swings, you'll get over it. but that's the t

Dedication

Well, if there was such thing as Bipolar III, I would have it. I show lot's of the symptoms of Bipolar Disorder, but that does not mean that I am bipolar. It also means that I cannot adequately relate to those of you with this disorder. This blog is dedicated to you.